May 26, 1994 - "Youth Confessions"

A lot of times I don't see the fruit that discipline bears yet, but I know my parents have loved me because they've disciplined me. I just want to say I love my parents and they are wonderful and I'm thankful they've disciplined me even though I've hated it. When Peter said what he said about, "If anyone is here halfheartedly then they may just as well leave" - it really affected me because I don't want to be here half-heartedly. I want to love our Master with all my heart. I'm thankful for what we've heard today.

Philip (Ben Naboth)- I want to say that I know I've been a person who tears other people down with my mouth. And Abba has told me that, "you can't be a person who uses their tongue to bless God and curse man. I don't want to use my tongue to curse man at all. I want to use my tongue fitly to bless our Master. Our Master is worthy of my tongue. I want to use it to praise Him - I know He's worthy of it. And I want to say that I'm sorry for tearing people down. I don't want to be that way any longer. I want to change tonight. And like Raphael said - we can't be quiet about it. I want to use my tongue, and that's what I'm going to do - from this day forward I'm going to bless our Master. I'm going to build my father up, and I'm going to build my brothers up - that's what I want to do from this day forward. And I'm sorry for all the times I haven't done that.

Miryam (new sister who lives at Basin Farm - used to be Shelly) - I know that before I came here, I believed there was a God. I believed there was a God who was cruel - who was mean and awful. And I was just sitting back here looking around at this farm - and I know that no way could our God be cruel at all. Look what He's given us. Look around - look at your brothers and your sisters. A cruel God wouldn't have given us love. He wouldn't have given us brothers and sisters. He wouldn't have given us farms. He wouldn't have given us houses. I know that our God is wonderful - He is great! He sent His Son - His Son - to die for us.
With all of the evil ways in us - the cruel things we have done - He still sent His Son to die for us - for our sins, so that we don't have to die for them. (crying) And I am so thankful. And I know there's a God who does love all of mankind. And I know I was chosen by a wonderful God to be here and share in that love with all of you. And I just want to say that I never ever want to have that thought - that there is an awful God out there - ever again. Because I know it's not the truth. The truth is - He is wonderful! And He loves us. And I just really have that in my heart.

Shelavah (daughter of John Imperial) - I want to say that it's true what Yonah said -that it's evil - the spirit that has come to me - that I've let come over me and that I've put over other people - that you'll be rejected if you speak the truth. It's evil because I haven't spoken the truth. (crying) I've done things and I've been afraid of being rejected and losing friends - and living proof is before me today. I wasn't a true friend toYahnathan Oded. I hid things. I covered for his sin
because I was afraid of losing a friend - and I lost a friend. And I really want to repent to the children and any of the young people that I've hurt. I want to say that it's a lie that you can't be open with your parents. I know I supported that in Yahnathan. And I hurt today because I see ways that I could have helped him. And I'm really thankful for my parents - that they've loved me. and Sarah really talked to me about that - and it really affects me to see Yahnathan today - to know that I could have helped.

Y'shai (ben Abner) - I wasn't so much a part of the underground - probably the main reason was because I was the only boy my age in Burlington. But want to say that way was still in me. That desire was still in me when I came to another Community and got around other boys - that way was in me to want to be accepted. But I want to devote myself totally to my parents and to Yahshua. I want to give my life totally to them. And I don't want to be duly or apathetic, but I want to be hot for our Master. I'm thankful that He saved us. I want to build a relationship with my parents. I want to dwell in our Master's words and I want to abide there. That's what I want to do,

Yoshiah (benYonah) - I know I haven't been a main instigator of the underground, but I've been thoroughly involved in it. (crying) And I haven't been salt to my friends. So I thought they were my friends, but I wasn't their friend. And I was a foolish son. Many times I haven't received my discipline, and I haven't accepted the way my Abba has dealt with me. I know I was like a roach - that when the light came, I fled - under the counter, or under the rug. And people who would try to help me - I'd call "gangbusters". And I thought it was weird to he spiritual. And I know I want to he a spiritual man like my Abba. I know he has a really Godly heart and I want to be like him. I haven't talked to him the way I could have. I always thought my parents couldn't understand what I had to say to them. I just went along like a roach, and I want to repent for being that way and love our Master, Yahshua. I want to be a true friend. I know I've caused the younger boys to stumble and I've had bitterness us my heart because sometimes I was mistreated. I know I've been forgiven much so I don't have anything to say about the way I've been treated, even though sometimes it may not have been right. I want to repent for the way I've been in the underground. I want to be passionate for our Master and I want to be like my Abba. And I'm thankful I could talk to you today.

John Imperial - I want to say, "May Yoshiah have a double portion of his Abba's spirit"!

Yael A]Ahavah (daughter of Zemirah) - I just wanted to say something. (crying) Ever since I came back to the Community I know I've spread discord a lot talking about people behind their back. I know I'm unkind and different ways are in me. I know I don't want to be that way. And I was thinking that - our Father brought me back so that I could serve Him and that I could live my life for Him. And I'm so thankful that He brought me back while I was still a youth, so I could give my youth to our Master. I'm so thankful for Him that He saved me from death - because I know that's where I was going. I'm just thankful to be here.

Takif (ben Oseh Shalom) - I wanted to say that I know I wasn't one of the people who would just jump into things in the underground, but intended just to watch and talk about it afterwards. I know that's just as bad - the blood was just as much on my head. I know if I live like that I am just going to go to death and it's not worth living this life and going to death. You might as well just go out into the world if you were going to just die anyway. And I was thinking about what Peter said about giving your whole heart, and I know that I don't give my whole heart to things - I just say enough to escape through the week without anyone saying anything. From now on I want to give my whole life to Yahshua and I don't want to be intimidated anymore.

Ben Nabiy (new brother from Hyannis) - I want to say how thankful I am for the day our God gave us. I'm Ben Nabiy, for those of you who don't know me. I wasn't involved in the underground, because I'm new here - I have been in the Community for almost a month. But I have a pounding heart and I want to talk. I heard this girl come up a few minutes ago and she said she didn't know what she was going to say, and she didn't know how to be open - but she was open! And that's what the evil one wants you to think- that you don't know how to be open. He wants you to be into yourself and closed up and afraid and intimidated to speak and share what's on your heart. And all I see is young people getting in the way of each other trying to get to the podium to speak and that's the faith of our God to save these young people, and I'm thankful for that!

Tamiym (Greg from Lancaster) - I'm not a youth - I came from the world - but I have had it on my heart ever since the youth started coming up here to speak -(crying) to say I'm so grateful - I'm so thankful that our Abba is tearing down the strongholds, the principalities that have existed for hundreds of generations between parents and children, and children and children. I experienced and tasted that so deeply when I was in the world. I will make it short because I want the youth to come up here. I just want to say that I love the youth. Our Master's given me a love for the youth and everyone in the Body, and I'm grateful for that - because I was so dull in the world. I was such a tolerator. And I didn't love - I wasn't active. And I recognize that I still do that in the Body. And I see the youth suffer, and I don't know how to help them sometimes. I just want to say that I hate the world and I hate to see how the world affects the youth. And I love the youth. And there's things in the youth that were taken away from me because I was raised in the world. And I need them. I need the things that are in the youth. I'm just really grateful to be in the Body. I'm so thankful that our God is exposing these things. That's all I have to say.

Benyamin (ben Toshiyah) - I want to say that what Yoneq said earlier about the path of life and the path of death really convicted me. And I know for a long time I've been on the path of death. And I knew other youth who were and I didn't bring salt to them. I knew many people outside the Community and I could have been like our Master to them and brought them to salvation and been love to them, but instead I was just as bad as they were. And it grieves me now to think of the things I did - how I acted with them and many people inside the Community and how I wasn't salt to them. I knew that they were falling away and I knew I was falling away, and I never had the courage to express my condition. I'm really thankful for what happened with me a couple of months ago - that I was able to pull through that with the help of my friends in Boston - I could see our Master's love through them and not turn away from them. I know I've been one that has not honored my parents. I despised the instructions they gave me. And I know that since I have been baptized in Boston a couple of months ago - I've struggled with that. I really want to give that up and establish a relationship with my parents. Because I know if I don't do that all my brothers and sisters will follow right behind me and then my children will follow right in the way I did. There won't be a stop to that disrespect that's been passed to me from my father. It's gone on for so many generations. I'm really thankful for the Body - that we have a container that we're in and that we can be salt to one another and we can be each other's friends. And we don't have to be afraid of losing friends because if we're true friends, we can't lose each other by being salt-it will only make us closer. And I want to say I love everyone here - Tamiym - he was one of my best friends when I was going through the hardest time in my life. And I love N'su and Keli - everyone that's really been my friend when I've needed them.

Michael (son of Zemirah) - I just want to say that I wasn't so much a part of the "underground", but I have spoken behind people's backs about them and I have exposed people. I know what it's like to be mistreated and I don't want to be that way. I want to take a stand. And I know that a lot of youth who came up said how they ruined their whole youth. and I want to say that I want my youthhood to be pure and I don't want it to be defiling. I want to start it now.

Matthew (ben Naboth)- I was sitting back there with Asher thinking about how this could apply to me. And I started reasoning. I started thinking, "this doesn't apply to me because I haven't been so bad". I haven't done these wicked things. Chetz Barur lived here for about a year and a half here on the Farm and I heard about a lot of things that he had done in his life and I thought, "Well, I wasn't one of those in the "block" playing that music. I wasn't one of those listening to that music and giving my soul to it. I hate reason and I don't want to reason like that. And I saw that even one time to gossip like that about somebody makes me just as much a part of the "underground" and the wickedness that was here as Chetz Barur or anybody else that was involved in it - all these people who came up here and spoke. Not that that's the only thing I've done, but I know that just even one time that I did that makes me just as bad. I don't want to be that way.
I want to give myself to my parents and the authority of my household. And I know that I realty took on a negative attitude about living on the farm with my Abba. (crying) And I don't want to be that way. I want to give myself to whatever our Master has for me. I just want to be one of His servants and be a child of our Father. I really want to be there when our Master returns. I don't want to hide under a rock - I don't want to go to death - death for those who didn't stand for our Master.
When our Master was about to be crucified Peter was standing in the courtyard. And somebody walked up to Him and said, "You were with Him, weren't you?" And he said, "No." And a little while later somebody else came up to Him and said, '"(you were with Him, weren't you?" And he said, "No, I say I wasn't." And a little while later somebody else came up to Him and said, "Just the way you walk, I just know you were with Him. You were with Him, I know you were one of His disciples." And Peter said he wasn't - he denied our Master three times. (crying) And I don't want to deny our Master that way. I know that Ho is going to be faithful to me because He said He would be faithful even if we were faithless. And I want to be faithful to Him. I don't want to abuse our Master because I know He did a lot for me. I'm thankful for my Abba because I know my Abba is worthy of great respect. He's cared for me and brought me through a lot of things. And I want to say that my Abba is really wonderful - and my Emma also.

Caleb (ben Zadok) - I know I was one of the people who if someone told on me for something they automatically weren't my friends anymore - just for telling on me. And I know that's a really wicked spirit and I don't want anything to do with that spirit anymore. And I know I never said anything to anybody about anything! I never talked to my parents - I never talked to anybody else and I didn't have fear of anything. I didn't have a fear of death until I started living with Oseh Shalom - he put fear into me. And I'm really thankful for that, because if I hadn't have lived with him I don't know where I'd be right now. So I am really thankful for that.

Jeremiah (ben Racham) - I want to say that a couple of months ago in Boston when I was in training - a lot of my occupation was to hang around with a couple of boys. And all they would do was tear other people down behind their back. And then someone would see us and either we had this word we would say and we'd all leave or else I would just kind of sneak away and they would get into trouble. I would kind of reflect the "good guy". I don't want to be just tearing people down like that. I know I hurt people a lot and it was hindering what our Master was doing on the earth by tearing down His people and I don't want to do that. I don't want to speak behind people's backs. I want to love our Master with all my heart. I want to say that I'm thankful I can be here and that I have a good relationship with my Abba. Right now, if I have a problem, I can go talk to him. I know it wouldn't be that way if I wasn't here. I'm just thankful that I'm able to be here and have that kind of relationship with my Abba. I want to say I'm sorry for leading those boys in Boston into that. I guess I was kind of the leader of it. So I want to say I'm sorry.

Shifka (daughter of Shirah) - I want to say I really appreciate everyone who have already (crying) overcome to come up here and speak. I don't want to let the evil one hinder me. I'm really thankful I'm here. And I want to say I have the reasoning in me a lot of times that I couldn't speak to my parents just because it wasn't my real Abba, or that they didn't understand me. And I know that's wicked because I know I could open up to them and they'd have compassion for me. And I know that's what our Father has given me because He knows what I need. And I know they've bore with me a lot of times for desiring to be with someone else or go somewhere else because I didn't feel like I could talk to them. But I know I've repented for that, but I want to repent openly because I've talked to other people about it. I love my Abba and Emma and I know they have just what I need to prepare me to give me away someday.
And I want to say I wasn't fully involved in the "underground", but I know I went along with it in a lot of ways. I'd just listen to the way people talked and I wouldn't say anything - but I want to repent dearly for that. I don't want to have guilt on me anymore. And I'm thankful we are getting a chance to come clean of all this guilt.

Sarah (daughter of Malachi) - I know what everybody said today has really affected me. And I know I've really been a gossiper. And I know like what Shalivah said, I've been one who wouldn't speak up when I felt something was wrong because I was afraid I would lose friends - and I don't want to be that way. (crying) I really want to have salt in me and really love my friends. And I want people to be able to have salt with me, too, and be able to tell me things when they think something is wrong. And I know I'm so thankful for this life that we have. I'm so thankful that I was so privileged to be born here. And I am so thankful for my parents. I love them so much!

 

 

Seth (son of Salome) - In Boston I know I've been part of the "underground". I know I make excuses for it because most everybody knows my Abba (crying) left the Community. I want to be salt to all the youth, and I want people to be salt with me. I know that I'm not open at all. I'm really thankful for all the brothers and sisters in Boston who have helped me - like Ethan and Shaul. I want to make it to the kingdom. I don't want to have to taste death like my Abba. And I really want the other youth to help me not to be in the "underground" because I know that I have been in the "underground" in Boston. But I don't want to be like that anymore.

Obadiah (ben Ayal) - I want to say that I want to repent today for having the love of the world in me and being part of the "underground". This last winter, I gave myself to things of this world and I want to repent - I don't want to have anything to do with the things of the world. I know our Master is more worthy than a "skidoo". And I know I don't want to put my life into things that are going to burn up in the end. And I know I have a love for my Abba more than my Master - I haven't cut this off. I have a love for my Abba and what he does -and I want to cut it off today and I want to repent for it. I want to love our Master with all my heart. I know I've had a big part in being a backbiter to people and being mean - not loving people like I know I should and going against my conscience. I want to make Yahshua my Sovereign, everyday. And I know I haven't been faithful to do that, but I want to do that continually. I want you to forgive me for having the love of the world in me and accepting it - and I knew it was wrong. I'm sorry.

Alas (daughter of Anak) - I'm thankful for what has been shared - it's really spoken to me. I know I'm one of those who made comments constantly about things I don't exactly like. I know I've been one of those who hated authority in my life and it's been hard for me to submit to our God. But I want to put an end to that today and I want to say that I love our Master with all my heart. And I love my Abba and Emma for what they did - they brought me into the Body when I was 5 months old. And I only have great appreciation for that, in them doing that I have eternal life. And I'm really. really thankful for our Master and the sacrifice He was for my sin. I know I want to love our Master with all my heart from this day on, because He is worthy - He is worthy for all of us to give our whole youth to Him and the rest of our lives because of what He did for us. And I'm really thankful today. I'm really thankful that we were delivered. And it's so wonderful to see everybody here 10 years later - to see how much everyone's increased. I just want to say I'm really thankful.

M'susah (daughter of Deborah in Boston) - I have been sitting back there thinking, "What am I going to say - I can't say anything, but I want to put silence down. I haven't shared in 2 weeks at the sacrifice because I have been giving in to sin-I hate intimidation, and I want to get rid of it right now. I never really was an instigator in the "underground", but I know I watched my brother in it and I didn't say anything, and I watched him go to death, (crying) Last summer he left the Community, and when he left I was sad, but I knew it was my fault, because I didn't tell my Emma the things he was doing. I want to cut that off. I want to help my friends - I want to be salt to them. I just hate the way I was. I'm so thankful that our Master's blood made us clean and that He can forgive us, and we can depend on Him all the time. I'm so thankful that my brother came back -that our Master saved him.

Shoshannah (daughter of Salome) - I know that today I was really thankful (crying) for my Emma because I was thinking I was so thankful that she stood for our Master. I wasn't really a part of the "underground", but I know I've talked about people before, and it really bothered my conscience. But I was just too afraid to tell on my friends because I didn't want them to think bad of me. But I know really that I lost a lot of friends because I didn't tell on them for things that they did. And I haven't been salt to people. I know a lot of things about my Abba, but I didn't tell on my friends, so I didn't even have a second thought about the wrong that people are doing. I am really thankful that I live in the Community -I don't want to take it for granted, the life that we have. I am also really thankful that Yahshua had mercy for me, because I could be going to death and be where my Abba is right now. I know since he left there have been hard times and I just say, "Well, if my Abba can't do it, neither can I." And I just say, "I might as well just go live with my Abba." My Emma says, "No. You need to be better than your Abba." I'm just really, really thankful for my Emma and how she's raised - the good things that she's put into me. I just want to say that I love my Emma with all my heart.

David (son of Deborah in Boston) - I came to the Body about a year and a half ago. I didn't have the opportunity to grow up here like most of my friends did. And I know there's ways in me that I didn't give up when I first came here. And I know the first time ha-Emeq heard my name it was because I led my friend, Amatz, astray. I led him off the path of life. And I know I rejoiced in the things that are evil, and I put that into my brothers and my sisters. I know that if I'm not building them up, I'm tearing them down. I don't want to be one who tears down, but I want to be one who is here with my whole heart. I want to give myself to what our Master has - I want to build up His Body and give Him my whole strength. I don't want to rejoice in things that are evil, but I want to rejoice in things that are right- that are good. I'm thankful that we have the desire to change and can be different. And like Chayim said - we can all work together and can change.

Phinehas Surla (son of Yaquarah at the Basin Farm) - I want to say that this past winter I've had a love of the world in me and I know I've led a lot of other boys astray - I led them into it. And I want to say I want to repent from that because I know the world has nothing but death. I want to take a stand against it today because I know it's leading me to death. Also I know sometimes I've torn down other people - I want to repent for that.

Deborah (from Boston) - I just want to say that I am so thankful for our Master. (crying) I'm so thankful for His faithfulness. I am so thankful to he standing here today, and have my family here. (crying) And I didn't grow up in the Community and they didn't either, but our Master saw fit to bring us here and give us Life! And I was in death and I was going to death and all my children were going to death too, but our Master, He saw me - He saw me as one of the ones who were desirable in His sight - and He brought us home. And I am so thankful for that. And I want to put an end to being part of the ''underground'' - because I was a part of the "underground" in Boston. And I saw things that weren't right and I didn't say anything. And I was a part of the gossip and I didn't say anything. And I am so thankful that our Master has given us the truth and He's shown us that the broad path is wicked, and that the narrow path is where there is life. And I want to be on the path of life. I'm thankful that our Master is faithful - He's always faithful, He's always been faithful. I just want to say that I am a blessed woman - that my children saw that this was right and they gave up their own sovereignty. And I am just so thankful for our Master.

Aram (ben Takif)) - I'm thankful to be here today. The things I heard today really convicted me. I know I wasn't really a part of the "underground" a whole lot, but I was one who stood back and watched and didn't say anything. I know I was a coward. I saw my friends doing things and I was afraid I was going to lose my friends if I told on them. And I know what Yonah said - that that's a wicked way to be. (crying) I know I was the opposite of a friend by being that way. I want to repent for being that way.
And I was also one of those who said my parents didn't understand me. And I know about 8 months ago I was going through things in my life and I said nobody understood what I was going through - nobody could understand me. And I know I was really wrong to be that way. And I have been shown the right way now and I'm thankful - that today I can say that I can tell my parents anything and I know they understand everything about me - everything I go through.

Ishah Ruth (daughter of 10 Nekar) - I want to say that I'm so thankful for my parents. (crying) I love my parents so much. Yesterday when I was hearing people speak it made me feel so bad, because I told myself, "Oh, I have to wait until I'm 18 and then I can stand up like Elishevah and say how I love them so much." I didn't understand how they could just get up there and say how they love their parents and they'd go through things.
I'm so thankful that my parents came here to the Community because I know I wouldn't have chosen it without them. I know up until just a few minutes ago I thought I couldn't talk to them. People would tell me that I could and I wouldn't receive them - I wouldn't believe them. I didn't want to and I wasn't going to do it!
I'm so thankful that our Master has mercy on us and we can repent and I know I want to repent from that because I know that I'm going to die - the way I live my life I'm going to die - because I don't honor my parents. And I know I was part of the "underground". A couple of years ago there were times when I would feel left out because I thought it was "cool' to be a really good person who played sports good or to play music really good. And the things my brother was going through - I thought I was getting left out of something. And little did I know I was in it myself. I was talking about people and I would laugh at people I thought I did things better than them. I'm so thankful I can repent from this, because I know I'm going to die. I live such a closed life and nobody knows what's going on in me. I want to change - I don't want to be that way.
I know that I've seen things that go on and I've heard a lot of things that have happened and I don't say anything. I know things that are going on with people and I just laugh at what they say - and I know it's really evil. I talk about people all the time. I know when I was in training I would do that too - I would laugh behind the teacher's back and I was so disrespectful. I want to change - I don't want to be that way, because I know it's leading me to death.
I know at the sacrifice I never say anything. Sometimes I just sort of try to pray or something so it won't raise suspicion. I want to be so thankful for our Master, Yahshua. I know it doesn't take the world to make me thankful. I know our Master died just for me. He knew I wouldn't have chosen this life without my parents. I'm so thankful for our Master and I want to he so devoted to Him. And I don't want to be here half-heartedly.

ha-Emeq - It's not just something we've said lately - you've been hearing this all along - because He was chosen and you all were chosen to he really high creatures. You weren't just chosen to hang out on the street corner and drink Coca-Cola's - not like senseless people. The kind of lives you live should be like intelligent people, not like senseless people because you've been called to a high calling. It's like a king's son who was living in a palace. He had his son and the son was going to grow up to be the king. But instead the son ended up down on the street with all the peasants just hanging out down there and just wasting his life. But actually, that guy has royal blood flowing through him - he is actually the next one in line to be the king. And he looked down the street and he had his hat on backwards and he was just sitting over there in the corner, trying to be cool.
And you go up and say, "Chetz Barur - you're supposed to be the son of a king, you know, - what are you doing there? You're acting like just a senseless person." That just doesn't fit. So that's why it made me feel so had because it is like a flashback of that church building that I went to. And when someone stood up and said, (I think it was Tamiym) "Our Father is destroying today this big, massive plot of the evil one to divide parents from their children" - well, I think it's so much more than that He's breaking down today. He's breaking down the seeds of another Christianity that would be formed right in our midst - that we would just turn into a bunch of Christians. The next generation would still have a sacrifice and everything, but they would just be waiting for it to be over, so they could play volleyball. That's all they would be thinking about - not authentic, and not genuine. And so then we come and we say, "What's this about sports - what's going on about this thing about sports? And everyone says, "Hey, what are they doing? Now we're not even going to get to play Frisbee anymore. What's this -are we going to have to throw away all the halls in the Community or what?" Well it's because you weren't being authentic and genuine. Yoneq can throw Frisbee better than any of you guys, but he's authentic and genuine. He has the true faith. And that true faith knows that Frisbee is just junk. It's not important. but of course it's important to run and jump and get exercise. And if you can't see the difference between that and being into sports - you can't see and you're just a senseless person. It's not that we say, "Ban Frisbee's from the Community." If we want to be Christians we can have our own team - like in another tribe, they have their own team . It's nothing but a Christian group, because they don't have any vision for who they are. We have a high calling - we are going to rule. He wants a people who will rule together with Him. We need to have our minds filled with the things above and not be so low in just plastic nothing down there -just senseless people. The kind of lives we live need to show people that we're not senseless, but that we see something much higher. People that are preparing a child in the world to be something great really put a lot into them - that he would know that he is going to he the "king of Morocco" or something! Or that he is going to be the ambassador to some place. But our calling is even higher. So it's just such a waste, and it made me so sad, that we didn't see the calling that we have - and let us be reduced to nothing but senseless people, that don't see beyond just a volleyball. You didn't see past that.
In Titus 3 it says, "Remind them to be obedient to the authorities. Be ready to do good at every opportunity. Don't go on slandering people, talking about people, but be peacemakers, gentle - and always being polite to all the people - every kind. There was a time when we too were ignorant, and disobedient, and mislead, and enslaved by different passions and dissipations. And that's really the truth. I mean it says it so good - this is the Bible. It says it so good. Just what some of you guys were saying when you got up here. I'm going to read it again to you. "There was a time when we too were ignorant, disobedient and mislead, and enslaved by different passions and dissipations. We lived then in wickedness and malice (that means cutting people down -hurting people - hating others and being hateful ourselves), but (this is the best part) - look it says but right there - but when the kindness and love of our God and Savior for mankind were revealed, it was not because of any upright actions that we'd done ourselves - it was for no reason except His own faithful love that He saved us. He saved us - by washing away all of our sins and washing us with the Holy Spirit. And that's the good news - that even though you were so bad and dark that there's hope for you! Because we used to be just ignorant, senseless people who thought life was nothing better than a Frisbee game BUT the mercy of our God has been revealed to us - that we can see the high calling that we have. And it's so true what Chayim said, that we all have to do this because if there's a dark person, then that dark person just pulls everyone down-just pulls you all down. Peter (son of Qashaq) said that he wanted to be doing good when he got here - he wanted to be perfect. He didn't want to make any mistakes so you all could know that he really was authentic and genuine. He really wanted to. And then he started making mistakes - but that's okay to make mistakes. It's all right - you can make mistakes, if you just repent all the time. Because we're going to be making mistakes all the time - so just be perfect at repenting. Just be repenting all the time if you can't be perfect. And both are just as good as each other. Either being perfect or repenting all the time. They are both the same in my eyes. Both the same. So he wanted to do good so much and he just would make mistakes. Then he felt the pressure and thoughts of being around some of his old friends -that he'd looked up to and that were always close to him. and then he started getting that feeling. And he said, "maybe I should not sing so loud, I should just step back just a little bit and not get so close to the middle." He fell back - it kept pushing him back from what he wanted to do -just pushing him back - not to be so spiritual. "Don't think I need to pray all the time at the sacrifices" - that feeling was pushing him hack.

So we have to do what Chayim said - we have to all do it together. And then if there's one who's disobedient, then be obedient to what it says and have nothing to do with them. Admonish them as a brother - but not treat them as an enemy and scorn them and treat them bad. That's the only way. But if you're all like that there's no way to do it. not if you're all on the good side and then one is being disobedient - you can not be influenced by him because he'll influence, and influence, and influence, and you won't go sit down in your seat - sit down with him. That's what it is talking about in Psalm 1 - sitting down in the seat where they are sitting - you know there's a whole, dark group there, and you kind of just go down and sit with them. It's not going to work - you're going to be dark yourself in a really short time. Have nothing to do with the deeds of darkness. "Flee from it" the Bible says. And get to know His words. that's what Yoneq's been telling us. Get to know His words, so you'll know. Something happened that was kind of bad but also good, in the Community in Boston. Chetz Barur got back from the way-out house and you know what - he knows some of the Bible now - by his memory! He actually knows it. And a bad situation came up and he learned a lot from it. So anyway, he knew the Bible and there was a person there and he was talking to him and he said, "and look right here in this verse", and he turned over the pages and said, "And here's another verse right here - and another and another". And people like Seth were sitting around saying, "Whoa - look at him." (No, no -They weren't mocking him. It wasn't at all like that.) They were saying, "I wish I knew some of the Bible - that I could talk to this guy. I wish I knew just a couple of verses that would have applied in the situation." They didn't know any. And it had just been that he knew them because he was sitting under Aharon at the way-out house and he had learned some verses. And they were going, "Whoa" -not in a mocking way - but he knew what he needed because this book has everything that you need in it - all the answers to all those questions. It's all in here. Just like those verses that I read. Weren't they really good verses? Just amazingly good verses. But there's so many more in there. And you can know them - you can have them marked in your book. And when some kind of situation comes up and you're not sure of it - you can say, "Oh, yes, Eph 3:15" -and you'll have it in your mind. That's why Yoneq has talked about teaching the word of our God to the children, Because it is going to come back, and you'll be really amazed at how much you know. You'll say, "I don't know anything" - but when you start getting into it you'll realize that a lot has been put into you, and you really know something - some ammunition. Because when the enemy comes along to make us into Christians, we have to have something to stand on. You have to he wise to stand against all the really tricky schemes that are going to come against us in these days. And you're the ones who are being raised up. We can't have the kingdom come - like Chayim was talking about - unless we FIGHT! And we've got to have ammunition to fight with. And so instead of spending your time doing worthless things you can spend your time gaining wisdom. There's so much wisdom here. And in the things that you're being taught, if you really set your mind to it you can really grasp it.

So I am really encouraged and happy to hear what you said - to hear your hearts because it was really just what I wanted - authentic and genuine! Something authentic and genuine is happening on the earth - it's not just a big fake. and it has to be you guys - your hearts. I'm so thankful for everything that you said. It encouraged me so much because I was sinking down in sadness. But I'm so happy now because you all really heard the words of our Father. You have the same spirit as we have and we're going to make it.

Havah - I just want to say something about what I see today that really encourages me so much. I know that 10 years ago our Father delivered the children from the Social Services. And I know that what He's delivering them from today is a much bigger thing - it's a much bigger victory.
Hakam and I have been talking over the years - so much when I came into the Body. I would just look at the children knowing they were just coming into being youth and I would get this fear, this panic in me and I'd say, "How are we going to do it? What are we going to do? How are they going to be different than teenagers in the world? I mean we can't give it to them - what do we have? Where did we come from? How are we going to bring them through puberty until they get married? What answers do we have? (crying) What are we going to do? And I am just so thankful that our Father is doing it. I'm just so thankful that He's doing it. That all these children who were delivered from the hands of the state 10 years ago - today they're being delivered from the claws of the world because they're coming of age. And they are being delivered from the claws of the world by their own choosing - by their own choosing - because our Father let their parents have them for those 10 years and now they can make the choice. And our Father is making a way for them to do it. And I'm so thankful - so thankful. I need our children just for where there at. I want to be open like they're open. I'm not open like that - I'm so locked up. but I want to be able to be like the way they are. I just long for the day to be able to be like the children were today.

John Mark - I just want to share a little revelation that I had. The other day in Hyannis we were singing the song, "We need everything each of us has". And in the song it says, "Yahshua needs a people who've proven their love - a bride who desires her king." And I started thinking about that song. And I thought about my wife. Before we were married we were on a waiting period and knew that my wife desired me. And I knew she wasn't out seeing other people and that she desired to be with me. And I realized that's what our Master desires. He wants people who have proven their love, not just people who say the right things . they perform in the gatherings or whatever - but He wants us to prove our love through our actions and our deeds.
And I also thought about how to some people it might seem kind of weird that we can get up here and we can cry and get emotional and that we're sincerely sorry for things we've done. And people might say, "Well, they don't do drugs - you know . they don't do all these bad things . what's so bad about it?" But what we're repenting about today are die motives behind all the things that go on in the world - they're the seed of the problem - the root of the problem. I'm just thankful today that we can repent for the ways that are in us and not just cover over the actions -just because we don't do something, to say it's not in us. But that we can repent for the motives behind the things that we do. I'm just thankful that we can be pure.

Abigail (daughter of Deshe) - Today I'm just so thankful to our Father for His mercy. And I'm so thankful it's not too late - that He's going to change us.
I was thinking about what ha-Emeq was saying - about the Christian children. I know I was one of those who would sit back like that. And today that's what I want to cut off- and I don't want to be like that. And I know that I've talked about people behind their backs, and I've been a gossip - and I've done so many things. I've even resisted my parents authority over my life and I've loved my independence. And I know it's really brought shame to my parents - and made it look like they didn't train me up in our Father's ways. hut I know that's not true - it was my rebellion. And I'm so thankful that our Father is going to change us - that it's not too late. I'm just thankful for His mercy.

Noah (ben Yonah) - I know I've been one of those people who've said, "I know my parents won't understand when I talk to them". (crying) I know I don't want to be like that. And I know the first commandment says that you should love your parents with all your heart. And I know I haven't done that. I know they've loved me and I just haven't done that. I want to cut that off today and I want to start loving them from now on. I want to be able to go to them without any hindrances and just tell them everything that's on my conscience. And I'm just so sorry for saying all those worthless things and not loving them.

Yoneq - In Isaiah 29 in the 20th verse it says, "The ruthless will vanish, the mockers will disappear, and all who have an eye for evil will be cut down - and those who with a word make a man out to be guilty, who ensnare the defender in court with a false testimony and deprive the innocent of justice." But this is what our Master, our Father, Yahweh, says to the redeemed house of Israel - the One who redeemed Abraham - He says this to the house of Israel - "No longer will Jacob be ashamed, no longer will their faces grow pale when they see among them their children, the work of My hands; they will keep My name holy - they will acknowledge the holiness of the holy One of Jacob, and will stand in awe of the God of Israel."

And then it says, however you want to take it here in the 24th verse - talking about the children or even the people who see our lives - let's take it as our children -"But those children who are wayward in Spirit will gain understanding, and those who complain will accept instruction." And that's the most wonderful thing. I know that our wayward children have been redeemed today. they were wayward in spirit and they gained understanding today. And those who complained accepted instruction.

 

Tohorah (daughter of Hakam) - I hate the underground. (crying) I'd rather not have friends than to have friends and go to death. I'm thankful for my parents because they chose this life even though it's difficult. I know I haven't honored my parents like I should - they really deserve the honor.
I know my Abba's really stood with me and I've really been rebellious. I've resisted him and resisted people in life and had my own way of thinking. I know I realty love my Abba and I love Havah and I love Daniel and Shomeret -everyone who's had input in my life. And I want to turn it back - and the rest of my youth - I want to give it back to them because I know they deserve all the honor.

Hassidah (daughter of Takif) - I'm really thankful for what I've heard today. I know I've been one of those who've been afraid to speak the truth because I'd lose my friends. (crying) And I don't want to be that way, and I want to repent because I know that's not being a friend. And also I've been one to think that my parents can't understand if I want to talk to them - but I know it's not true. And I love my Emma and my Abba. And I don't want to be that way - and I want to repent for that. I don't want to have any part of that in my life.

Paul Gregoire- I wanted to say one more thing. Magen said something about Jonathan Langmaid, I don't really know why he left or what he went through or anything, hut I just want to say on behalf of the youth that we have nothing in our hearts but total love for him. And I just really want to welcome him to us and we just want to show him our friendship. I'm just so thankful that he's here.

Magdalene (daughter of Ayil) - I was thinking - how does this teaching apply to me? I realized that I was one of the main ones who led a lot of the youth into a "cool" spirit when they would sit on the edge and not give themselves to celebrations and sharing at the sacrifices and being thankful - and I want to repent to my friends for being that way. I don't want to lead them into that spirit anymore. I'm going to cut it off right now.

Olivia (daughter of Ma'aminah) - Today when Yoneq was speaking I was so thankful that I was able to be here. (crying) I want to say I'm so thankful for my Emma. I know that she's stood - she's gone through so much - but she's stood firm and that's the only reason I can stand here today. I want to give my whole heart to her. I know she's worthy of all the respect that I have - and all the praise and everything. She has gone through so much. I'm just thankful that I'm here. I'm thankful that I can be in the Community and give my life to our Master and not standing out somewhere and just giving my life to the world. I'm thankful that I have eternal life and I'm not in death any longer. I'm so thankful for my Emma and everyone here.

Hephzibah (daughter of Sharon Harris) - I want to say that I'm thankful for my Emma, and I know I can truly communicate to her what's in my heart. And I want to be able to do that as long as I'm with her. And I want to give myself to her. I know that I've been intimidated and made comments to the other youth about the way I felt about things that I didn't particularly care for - but I want to give that all us. and I want to come under the anointing and I want to love authority.

Elishevah (daughter of Ishael) - I want to say today how thankful I am that I'm a part of this life. And I know that I gossip a lot and I want to be saved from that. I'm thankful for my parents - that they raised me up in this life. And also I was thinking how thankful I was for Yoneq and ha-Emeq, (crying) and how we wouldn't be here right now and have this life if it wasn't for them - how they were so sensitive to our Master's voice. I'm just thankful for kingdom. them starting this life - having a burden for the youth to make it into the

Lisa (wife of Israel!) - I'm really thankful today for the things we've heard and there's something in my heart for the people who have been here since before the Raid and all that time because of the things that you've endured and the things you've gone through to learn that our Father has spoken to you - that they could go into us. I'm thankful especially for those who endured during the time of the Raid - that time of testing. Because of the Raid and the publicity of it -some friends of my Emma in western New York heard about it and they came to the Community and we came too to see what was here. And I'm really thankful that what we found here was the truth - because what was in our Father's heart could he expressed through a people. I hardly know how to say it all, but I'm just really thankful that what we found here was the truth and that it's real and authentic and genuine like ha-Emeq said - that there isn't going to be any guile in us and we're not going to be hypocrites. and we're not going to say one thing and think another. And I'm thankful because I'm being saved from that too - being a certain way around some people because I'm afraid of what they'll think of me. I'm just thankful that this life is real and genuine. I'm thankful for my parents and for my Emma and how she responded to the voice of our Master -and my Abba and how he took care of us. I'm thankful that I could be married in the Body and have the foundation of a marriage in the body. I never would have had the opportunity that I have now. I'm just really thankful that our Master came to the earth and we know that His life was real and true. I'm thankful that our God loves us so much that He sent His Son and we know of the life that He lived because we are living it also - loving each other. I'm thankful.

Azariah (ben Oseh Shalom) - Today I want to say I know I have been one who has said a lot about adults behind their back. I know I've even said things about my own parents. My mother was in the Community when my Abba wasn't here - she remained faithful. Then my Abba came back and I was able to live with him, and I know I shouldn't have anything to say against either of them that's bad. I know they've endured a lot. And I know Yoneq was saying at the very end about, "Woe to the children who are stubborn." And I was just thinking how I didn't want to come up here and share anything, but I want to say I don't want to he stubborn, I want to give it up. and I want to just overcome my intimidation and speak. I want to repent for speaking to other youth and going on about government - everything. I just want to repent from it.

John Isaac (interpreted by Milkah) - I was very thankful about what Yoneq and ha-Emeq shared. It affected me. When I was growing up in the Body, I was very disrespectful to authority. Two years ago when I was twelve, I was very, very "cool". I was very satisfied with worldly things. When I was baptized I understood how our father wanted to change me. I was thankful for my parents. I love my parents very much because they have a wonderful authority in my life. they lay down their lives for me.
I want to say I'm sorry because I don't have an open life. I want to share my heart during the sacrifice. I don't want to be quiet and have a "cool" spirit in me. I understand our Father wants to save me. I don't want to leave and go in the world. My parents understand me. I'm really thankful that our Father has a purpose for me.
I am thankful I was horn in the Community and never have to live in the world - never, no. I'm so thankful that our Master died for us. I don't want to be
satisfied with the world. I'm so thankful for that. I want to be saved from that. I want to he thankful always. I'm so thankful our Father is leading me. I don't want to be led into the had things of the world. I don't want to hide myself. I want to confess my sins to my parents. I'm so thankful that I can be saved from that. I can be open with my parents.

Rebecca (daughter of in Nekar) - I just wanted to say that I'm really thankful for everything that's been said today. It's really convicted me because I know that I've been one of the ones who have been afraid to tell because I might lose some of my friends. And that made me act a certain way around them, but when I was around another friend I'd tell them this thing I had against this other person - and I know that was very evil - and it was gossip. And I really want to take a stand against this today. And I'm really thankful that I have this opportunity to express this, because it bothered me in the past be(ore, I just really want to cut it off today - and not be like that any more. I'm just really thankful.

Moshe (ben Oseh Shalom) - I wanted to say that I was really thankful for my Abba. He came here when I was with my imma, He came here, not because he wanted life for him - he did want that too - but he came here because he wanted a life for his children. I know he's endured a lot of suffering for me and for all his children. I'm so thankful that he endured - because if he wouldn't have endured, I wouldn't be standing here right now. I'm just thankful that he came here and that I am able to live with him - and that he's able to train me.
And I know what Yoneq was talking about is true - if you hate discipline you won't ever change - but I want to love discipline. I know I've hated discipline. but I want to love it, because I know it's what's going to change me. And if I don't have discipline I'll never change. I'll just go to death. hut I don't want to - I want to be saved from death. I'm thankful for discipline. And I want to be an example to all my younger brothers. I don't want to be spreading gossip and dissension among them. I want to be respectful and have salt in me, and I want to he a good example to my little brothers, like Daniel. I don't want them to grow up like me. I want to be a good example so they can grow up in the way they should go.

Short - I know I've heard a lot of things today - and probably like you - cried a lot. I know it says 2 things in Proverbs that came to my mind. One - it says, "The most precious possession of a man is his diligence." And two - it says, "To guard over your bean with all diligence."
And I know what I heard from what ha-Emeq shared was genuine faith. What she had was genuine faith. And anyone who is in Messiah, has genuine faith. And they have to guard over that with all their heart. With all diligence -we have to guard over it.
The love of our God has been poured out in our hearts today - to the youth especially. And you've got to GUARD it with all your hearts - as long as you live. That's the most important thing you can do.
In Isaiah 53 it says something so emphatic that sometimes you have to just grab onto it and you can't let go. just like it says in Daniel 2 - it says. "In the days of those JO kings, the God of heaven will set up a kingdom that will never be destroyed. It won't be left for another people." And sometimes you have to just IIANG ON to it because it's subjective. It doesn't say it might - it says it's going to happen. I'll tell you why it's going to happen.
It's going to happen because it says in Isaiah 53, "As a result of the anguish of His soul, He will see His offspring and He will be satisfied." There's a lot of people who talk about the anguish of His soul, hut there's very few people who really know about the anguish of His soul enough to where they will surrender their whole life to where He can pour His love out in their heart. And so if we guard over that love that has been poured out in our hearts with all diligence - He is going to see His offspring and He is going to he satisfied. It SAYS that Ho will see it And satisfied means that your mind is relieved of any fear anxieties or doubt'. Actually it says in Isaiah, that our Master Yahshua. as a result of the anguish of His soul, He is going to see His offspring." And He is going to be free of ad fear, anxiety and doubt - because the spirit of Elijah is in our midst. It's turning our hearts back to our Father - and it's turning our hearts to our children.
I felt like today that I was back on the plane when Eliyah was there and he exposed the false God and he revealed who the true God is. And Israel fell down on their faces and turned back to the true God. And we can't forget it. We've got to GUARD over this. And we need each and every one of you youth to use your eyes in the next generation and help them. When you see those dark groups, get in there with the spirit of love and stir it up. Talk to them. Don't cower away, or we're not going to make it. I feel ashamed that I could hardly see it My love fails. It says, "love never fails." My love failed you because I couldn't see it properly - but I'm learning, I'm thankful. I'm really grateful. I'm so thankful for our Father's purpose. I'm telling you - what the world needs to see is genuine faith - genuine faith.
Ten years ago, my wife saw genuine faith on a TV show in Tennessee. Here Hakam was just "dragged through the mud" - absolutely his whole reputation. My wife got dragged in front of the TV set by her parents who were Christians. "Sit down! Look at this! This is what happens when you misinterpret the Bible." So she sits down and looks at it. And there's Hakam and he's walking down the sidewalk from up by the bridge that comes down by the railroad station
- and all the news reporters are there. "Mr. Wiseman! What do you have to say about all these things?" And he stood and he looked at the camera and he said, "All I know is that I'm going to stand by my God."
And I called my wife up and said, "Hey, did you get that stuff about the Community in Island Pond?" (because I sent her the newspaper articles) And she said, 'Yes I did." And she told me what I just told you know, And she said, "All I know, is he seemed like a man of God to me." And so I got in the car and I went up to Island Pond and I never left. Because I found GENUINE FAITH! So we've got to guard over that genuine faith (crying) with all our hearts. There's nothing more important that we can do. Every single one of us. Do you know what abiding is - it's enduring when you can't see - and when it HURTS! That's what abiding is, It's not just elated emotions 24 hours a day. It's when you're in the "foxhole" and you hang in there and you lift up your voice - that's what abiding is. And we need you youth to do that. We need you to abide in the vine
- to remain when it's hard - when you don't have any emotions - when you can hardly remember this day. That you'd open up your Bible and ask your Father to show you something. And we're going to make it as a people. I believe it - we need to claim that promise - "As a result of the anguish of His soul, He WILL see it!"" lease never fails - THAT LOVE CAN'T FAIL - what He did 2,000 years ago - if we let it affect our hearts.
There's probably other youth that have things to share - they can share it at their households. The same spirit that was here today lives at each and every household,
And I wish we could stand up - lift up our hands and just THANK our Father for His wonderful mercy towards us.

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